Saturday, October 18, 2014

Ang aking pinakatatakutan. (My Deepest Fear)

Papasok sa opisina. Nakasakay ako sa aking Honda Beat 110cc. Mabagal pero tuloy-tuloy naman ang traffic. Tumatakbo ako ng 20 to 40 kph. Mabagal na minsan bibilis. Hanggang sa marating ko ang Quirino Highway papuntang Balintawak. Balintawak tapos papuntang EDSA kung saan nanduon ang aking pupuntahan. Malapit na ko sa EDSA at medyo maluwag na, pwede ng biritin ang takbo ng motor. May nakasabay akong nakamotor rin- Raider 150cc yung sinasakyan nya. Di hamak na mabilis kesa sa akin. Bahala na pero sa luwag ng kalsada kaya ko na tong karerahin, kahit alam ko matatalo ako sa pabilisan. At ayun na nga, binirit na nya motor nyaBibirahin ko na rin ang gas. 40...45....50...60...65....80kph. Teka nasan na sya? Hala naiwan na ang Raider, teka bakit? 150cc iyon a, ano ang nangyari?

Hindi pala sa bilis ng motor at hindi sa nagmamaneho ng motor. Hindi ko sinasabing magaling ako o mabilis ako magpaandar ng motor. Mas lalong hindi mabilis ang scooter ko na 110cc kontra sa Raider na 150cc. Ang dahilan pala ay yung kung paano mo itulak yung kakayanan mo. Aanhin mo nga namin mabilis na motor kung mabagal ka naman magpaandar. Aanhin mo talino mo kung di mo nagagamit sa mabuting bagay. Aanhin mo yaman mo kung madamot ka naman. May mga bagay na meron tayo na sana pinagbubuti na lang natin at ginagamit ng wasto para makatulong tayo sa iba. May mga bagay na binigay ang Diyos na sana ginagamit natin sa kabutihan at hindi pansarili lang. 

At minsan natatakot tayo na ipush ang sarili natin na gawin ang dapat dahil natatakot tayo na malagpasan natin ang ating kakayanan. Iniisip natin na hanggang dito lang kaya natin kaya hanggang dito lang gagawin natin. Sabi nga nila ang tunay na kinatatakutan natin ay hindi kung ano ang hindi natin kayang gawin. Ang pinakakatakutan natin ay yung malagpasan natin ang ating kakayanan.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. by Marianne Williamson from her book, A Return To Love.